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Thursday, January 20th, 2005
10:46 pm
My mom grounded me for my grades, but I'm over at my dad's house for the next two weeks, so I'll update on that later

Luv you guys,
no more silence~
Saturday, December 18th, 2004
1:50 pm
Can someone please help me, i'm having trouble figuring out where everything is on live journal. I finally found the comments link. To answer the popular "Who are you?" question...here goes

For those who are wondering though
My name is Tiffany
I'm 15
i listen to bands like Keane and Matchbox 20
I hate lint...i have to rid EVERYONE of it...
I'm obsessive-compulsive
I love the smurfs....and mainly anything from the 80's
I'm very meticulous when it comes to certain things such as...were I want things put...how i'm organized etc etc
I only like sad movies...and sad people...and sad writing *hum*
I'm quite "emo" as they call it align
I LOVE small children. they are so...innocent *eh toddlers are ok too*
I have a fetish with British people, i love the way they talk. ::or just anyone with an accent:: it's quite appealing. to me that is
Music is my passion and it's the only thing i would die for
I tend to be TOO honest with people...
Writing is something I enjoy doing...although i may not be the best at it...i write strange and off the wall things that really makes sense...only to me
I have a VERY odd attraction for arrogant assholes...*this applies for more than just one*
I...go unnoticed most of the time, and I only want to be noticed by certain people (ie.friends)
i'm claustrophobic
I hate for most people to touch me
I only feel comfy in my converses...HA (my saxophone is one of my best friends *see i told you i was werid* only...it doesn't have a name and i'm not sure if it's a boy or girl.
hmm, i don't really know what else to say... i don't really like talking about myself that much....

Most of my friends so far i got off of fkank's journal... i haven't really found any more because i've been busy lately with "family christmas" outings and stuff.... i'll try to update as much as i can, i think i've figured out the comments thing, so leave one if u want to talk or whatever

Current Mood: confused
Friday, December 17th, 2004
2:09 am
"died...and so you died"
"You can feel my lips undress your eyes
Undress your eyes, undress your eyes
Skin can feel my lips they tingle - tense anticipation
This one is an easy one, feel the word and melt upon it
Words of love and words of leisure
Words of poisoned darts of pleasure
Died and so you died"

Jazz band...suprised I still have my solo.

My day sucked...history project due tomorrow.

Eh..I don't care.

I've been slightly "inspired" today...nothing great.

the words "you bloody bastard" are still in my head.

Eh...i can't do anything about them

So i'll put them to use.

Um....my medicine makes me sickie.

*got sick this morning for those of you whom could tell I didn't feel so well*

I talked to lee today. Like i use to.

I miss talking to him...

he's great

but imma go


Current Mood: sleepy
Thursday, December 16th, 2004
10:54 pm
im so bored.... i want sum friends, anyone who reads this please ad me to your friends list

im going to go sit down now

i hope someone hears me

Current Mood: bored
10:20 pm
I'm ready to give up
I'm ready to give in...to everything I've been holding back.

All the people I pretend to like...just to say I've given them a fair chance. I did, but I still hate them.

All the tears I've stopped myself from crying because I refuse to admit that even though I say I'm happy...even though it seems like I am at times...even though he no longer makes me miserable...I am inescapably, without doubt still miserable...still lonely...still feeling like I don't matter to anyone.

I'll tell you I'm fine when you ask...but to let you know in advance, I'm really not.

Once again...I feel like I've ruined things. I can't imagine how the bloody hell I keep letting myself do this...over, and over, and over and over and a over...someone stop me.

PLEASE. I'm so sick of pleading with myself. I'm so sick of believing it will eventually be normal.


I want to be back to me...

Ya know...the optimistic type that I've grown to despise. Not caring what people think, not caring how anyone else feels. (yes, I at one time was VERY arrogant myself...why do you think i hate that now?)

I want to stop caring...

I want to be able to say "fuck it" and move on like he does...i want to not care about people....not even myself.

But it could never happen.

Not ever.

I'm leaving now...


Current Mood: disappointed
Wednesday, December 15th, 2004
11:34 pm
Give me some sort of happiness
...in all of my misery.

I made a 95 on Mrs. Ingram's exam *muahahahaha...the highest grade in the class...tell me I'm brillant*

Other than that my day was uneventful. Megan got me the da vinci code for Christmas. I was excited...I'm on the 7th chapter I think....

anywho. I'm bored.

I guess Imma go. I have to be at the church at 5...oh yay. We're singing for everyone at 6...a whole hour early...why???

buh byes
11:22 pm
New Journal
This is my first new journal entry
i'm hoping to enjoy it
i need friends
....well, i'm going to go find friends
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